AI - Artificial Intelligence

Last week I was reading a book with subject about Science and religion. It touched some questions of where we “HUMANS” came from and where are “WE” heading?  A question, almost all of us would have wondered about in some point of our lives.

As I continued reading, I really got intrigued about the fact that how we are evolving at every step of life. Although we all have read or learnt about Darwins theory of Evolution, we never realize that it is a continuous process. And you and me, yes you and me are also part of this process.

As we are evolving as homo-sapiens, same time there is a new species of beings that are getting evolved in our world. And slowly we are being consumed by these species and we are turning into slaves to these species. It is no brainer that I am talking about Artificial Intelligence as the subject mentions it at subject line of this post. But how is this artificial intelligence taking over? Because technology is in our control.. Right?

I will tell why I wrote about it today…

In morning I was texting to a friend. Yesterday my phone fell and since then my phone has been acting funny. I realized that touch has gone very sensitive and when I touch one word to type, it was selecting 2-3 words surrounding that word. This was making texting difficult, so I started using suggestions shared by the google keyboard.

To my surprise, the words suggested are exactly what I generally use texting as per the person I am sending the message to.

For example, when I typed “I will go on.. “ suggestions were “the / a / Bike”. I was wondering why did it not offer me suggestions “car / bike / cycle”.

It is because I generally write that I go on bike, which is stored in its data as per my communication.

Well then I tried different combination which I generally use, my device suggested exactly what I would have written. However, when I inserted messages which I wrote first time or used word which I generally do not use, it suggested generic words.

It dawned to me that AI is not something which is coming in near future like we read in newspaper. Artificial Intelligence is there in our lives already. It is slowly evolving at every point, looking at us, learning about us and upgrading itself with each moment. World what we see today is believed to be result of millions of years evolution. But with time, even machines are evolving and slowly consuming us, making us crippled without them.

And there will be a day when we will reach a point that AI will be superior and our species will extinct. It will be like how speak about Neanderthals, 50 years down the line the future human machine will talk about us homo sapiens.

Ironic but true!!!

NEW YEAR RESOLU-SHUNSSS!!!!

‘Hey Happy New Year!!!’ my colleague greeted me.

“What new year? Everything is the same, same office, same desk, same YOU!!, What’s so great about today. It’s like every day.” I so much wanted to say that. But again, I have been told that I should be nice to people around me.

“Happy New Year Dude” I replied to him with same enthusiasm which he had shared.

“So what did you do? Drank like a fish. Your most favorite activity?” He enquired

Again, I never wanted to break the bad image I had. My life is personal and people keep assuming things which I don’t deny. I won’t like to tell them that I enjoyed the peace at home watching an English tv series with lots of food and sprite. I mean why anyone should be bothered how I live my life but then human nature is to nose into other people’s life.

“Yeah! You guessed it. Hope you too enjoyed yours.” I replied and sat on my desk to end the conversation and get back to my life.

“Where man, we are not lucky like you, had to sit with my wife and kids”

Who told you to marry? No one had put a gun on your head to do that. And if you have now got married then atleast try to be happy with them. Hipocrat!!

“Ok! A nice family time.” I replied thinking it will be end of a boring conversation.

“So what are your Resolutions for 2017?” he continued

“God it is not easy to end a conversation. Why are interested in my resolution. You take one and break it.” I answered in my thoughts.

“I don’t take resolutions. It’s something not serious but funny.

 “What you don’t make resolutions? Its good thing. What is funny about it?”

“Well I think 99% of resolutions are Resolu-Shuns.. that end by 2^nd week of January.”

“No! it depends on you and your will power. If you want you can do it. Probably you don’t have.”

Oh Man! You take back those words. It is my will power that you have never been slapped by me since you walked into this office.”

Well my will power helped me and I asked calmly “Ok what was your last year resolution?”

I guess he never expected me asking that. :P

“I don’t keep it but I was in general asking.” He replied shyly.

“Well bro! you don’t keep it, I don’t keep it. Let’s keep it that way.”

I turned around and switched on my laptop.

Resolutions are personal goals that one sets. And it is no rule that you should do it only on Jan 1. Anyday you decide to do something, tell yourself that is your resolution and not a January Resolu – Shun!!!

Your Dream is Your Signature

 

Your dream is your signature...

A quote that has always given a rush inside my body. A quote which gives birth to a thousand questions varying from who am i? to what will I leave behind?

In this world where you are one in the ocean what is that you leave back in this world?

Is it the your children? Your properties or something else?

World tells you to follow the path defined by them. You take birth, study hard, grow up, get a job, play safe, get married as you need company, have children and then get old and die.

All follow this and it is not wrong. But I do not want to follow the line. Is it wrong? I do not want to prove it to others but me only.

I do not want money in my bank account for a future I do not know but for now when I can spend it.

I would like to live like a human and enjoy this life gifted to me as a human. And I want at least one person to remember me for the things I did in life and not being the one in this crowd.

And if there is an afterworld, will you be satisfied with what you achieved or are we going to again find life as reasons for not achieving the success

For those who would argue that from doing big if I mean to build some monument or leave a property behind. No I don't want to any of that. I think you don't hav to do anything but live your dream and it could be anything that keeps you alive even when u r gone.

Sounds vague. For me too but then you come across people and life.

I have a close friend of mine who always talk about her father. I don’t think there would be a day when I have not heard atleast something she learnt from her father or how he was an awesome person.

I have not seen him but I think I know how wonderful that man would be. He not only gave them the best in terms of all materialistic amenities but he filled their souls also with love. He taught his daughter to be a leader. He gave his children a power to dream and follow them.

And I am talking about 15-20 years back when girls were still considered to be a burden on family. This man raised her daughter and son equally. To live head high and survive even in the toughest. I guess that was his dream and he achieved it.

Today he is not in this world but I believe he is alive. He left his signature in this world with his two kids and through them he is still alive. Or else i won't have learnt about such a wonderful human.

 Living this life depends on you. How you PROVE it to YOU and not to the WORLD.

How you leave a mark or live your dream is a question only you can answer.

As Malcolm Forbes rightly said, you cease to live when you stop dreaming. 

It’s a Good bye for Now

Hello everyone, it has been long that I have been missing from my blog after my fallout with GOD (missing as if anyone was looking for me… LOL). It should not matter too much for me if someone was looking for my posts or not because I write it for me. I won’t deny the fact that someone really had inspired me to write my blog but then that person also left. Life is like a train journey; people come, stay and then move out. You can’t cry or make fuss about it.

Well today there is nothing specific I want to write, it is just about the things happening and how confused I am in the whole process and what I think I should do. Life is giving me a bag of mixed emotions. It is like life is throwing lemons at me and I think I am going to make lemonade from them.

I am feeling my dream, my passion is still haunting me because the more I am trying to achieve them, more I feel that they going away. It is like a mirage, you feel you can reach them but then they are still away.

My current job is going fine, but then there is no energy or kick that would drive me to office. The feel is not right at all to work in that kind of environment but my commitments stop me from quitting.

And the worst part it previously when I used to be in such a phase where I felt low, when the things didn’t look fine, I used to just pick up my phone, dial number of my close ones and just talk random. Sadly today the busy world has taken over everything. Sometimes they are in meetings, sometimes they are with family or sometimes they just don’t realize because the phone is on silent. So other than the above said 2 points this fact kills me more that world has taken over my space in my people’s (I don’t call everyone my people) lives.

I guess the phase is not right for me. Some people say it is all about time, and God will make things right. I don’t feel so because it seems the so called GOD is trying to put me down, trying to bend me with his wits. Well if that is the case then I guess the “WAR is ON”. If I have stood by people in their tough times, I guess I can stand for me when required. Like my childhood days, the years when I spent my time alone in house, all alone, I had been my friend, my philosopher and my guide. I recall those times, when I used to stand outside our society playground where kids of my society used to play cricket and watch them playing. I was never taken in team because they knew the moment my mother reached back from office, I would have to leave the game halfway and go home.

The feel of being alone is not new to me. But since I got some freedom, I had made up a family of my own, of my people, the people I called friends, rakhi sisters or so called brothers from another mother. I have not been alone in recent past so it feels odd a bit now to find no one around. But then no one promised me to be there, and even if they did, they have their own lives.

There are some decisions I have to take to move ahead, to fight with this world, which tries to change you the way they want. I have my dreams to achieve, I have to show this world that I have lived alone and I can live alone again. I still won’t change, you all can look for me, this guy will still be there for you. Not like I will be there but unavailable when needed. I will be there, the way you have always found me.

This will be my last post till I have finished my first script. The thing I want to do for me, and till that time nothing else. There are some more steps I need to take, some decisions which may end some stories or which may make them believe that I left.  My stories never had an ending, I just leave them halfway. I don’t like endings but then I will accept the fact, that end is necessary. And there will be endings in every story of my life someday.

Till the time I am back, its good bye from me. Thanks for being there.

The Atheist in Me

"In the face of all that is so wrong with the world, the very worst thing you can do is survive. And yet you must survive. It is this dilemma that makes us believe and cling to the lie that we have a soul, and that there is a God who cares about its fate."

I had been a God fearing person and have always respected in the belief of the people and their religion. Since childhood I have been made to visit temples and stand in long Q's, as i saw people standing around me begging for their wishes to come true in front of some power whom they call God. But lately I tend to disagree with this concept called GOD. 

The quote mentioned above is a line which I read from a book which i was reading through and it stuck to me. Is it not true, the whole idea of this GOD and miracles is so fake and made up. The rules made by some people born long ago just to create a fear and run this world. We live in a world which is like a State of Fear. What I feel is that this world runs of fear and as a matter of fact, whoever has tried to overcome this fear has ruled in this world.  When it comes to GOD, we have a fear embedded inside our minds that we are being watched by some invisible force, who actually have hired an accountant and keeping records of the good and bad things one is doing. And based on that we will have our fates and life fixed. How convincing and easy it was to handle the state of affairs with this fear inside every living human being. 

Does it really happens? If that was the case, then I guess all the criminals across the world should have rotten to death, but that doesn't happen. But what we see is, some innocent people get killed under the rubble of illegal buildings, beneath the rich guys cars and then their kids roam across the streets as orphans. The world looks at them with hatred and punish them more. What wrong they did? The only mistake i could see is that they took birth in some poor family. 

This is a topic of debate and as I write this post, I know what all i am writing will be total rant, because whoever reading this will be having some fear in them about this thing called GOD. I somehow have lost the belief that there is some power which actually takes care of the world. Everything is in one's own hand, the power is inside you. You can't get peace sitting inside a temple if you have some major issue going in your life, while you can sleep peacefully in a scorching sun, if you are at peace from inside. The confidence to face the world comes within and nothing else can bring it until you have faith in your own self.

The world is blind and have its own angle to look at you. And for those who say that there some power actually, If that is the case and someone is actually managing the world then MAN, that person needs to improve because right now IT SUCK's!!!!

Tell Me O' Khudaa!!!

Statuatory Warning - Readers are informed that this post is written at 2 AM by the writer as he is sipping his 6th cup of black coffee mixed with shot of Cogniac. In short he is drunk and the pot may make no sene. Moreover letter 'S' on his keyboard is broken so there may be some 'S' mising inbetween. Readers can avoid if they want.

Ye jo world hai na world, this is made up of 2 kinds of people. How many kind?? 2 kinds, one who are good and one who are bad. Well the general misconception is that if you do good, then you get heaven after death, while the bad people end up rotting in hell. Ok, sounds good but that is after death. What about before death???

 

My mom ued to tell me, that be good boy, help people, love the beings around you and you will be loved and cared. Really?? Naah, I don't think this world runs on that track at all. If it did, then all the billionaires whom we know, would have been having white clean sheets of their life. Infact every famous man in the world has a dark history. And it seems like people with bad reputation are only respected. Make a controversy and you are looked up by everyone. You guys don't believe me?? Well let me explain...

 

Let us go back to our college days (those who are in college, open your eyes). College is a place where you will find 2 type of guys, the good guys, the geeks or sweet guys and then the show offs or the hunk kinds. Well most of the girls in college are attracted towards the hunk, who actually takes advantage of these so caled smart girls. And the good guys are left with their shoulders which comes in use when girls realise that the Hunk was just fooling around. Now the good guy thinks that now he has a chance but Naah. Then also there is a very less chance of them to get in, because by then Girls says "I don't think i can be in relationship with any guy. All guys are same." hahaha.... the good guys have no chance.

 

Now do you believe me?? Still No?

Oh God!! You need more examples.

Ok then lets go to our own indian mythology. Ok firstly, i do respect our mythology and the names I am mentioning are with due respect, and with no intentions to hurt religious sentiments.

 

Let us take an example of Lord Rama and Shree Krishna. Both avataars of Maha Vishnu. Lord Rama, the good guy, an obedient son, a good husband, a fair king whereas our favourate Krishna bhagwaan, the prankster, eve teaser or u can say the hunk guy. Ram ji was obedient, and he was sent to exile, one man woman that too was kidnapped, blamed on, half of the time was made to stay away from her. Anyone could come and say things to him and as a fair king he used to accept them, be it taking agni pariksha of wife or parting away from his kids. On the other hand our krishna bhagwaan, he used to steal since childhood but was loved by everyone, the guy had so many gopis, some 16K wives but still every woman of that era adored him. He practically told the cheat codes to Pandavas to win the battle and still he was much more famous and greater when compared to Shri Ram. You can see through it in practical life also, for rama no one generally says bhagwaan but for shri krishna bhagwan word comes automatically from our mouth. But if you look at the good and bad scale, Shri Ram has an upper hand.

So now tell me oh almighty, is being good really practical or somewhere one can be bad. I am not saying that be bad, do all the shit crap things but being good and nice is one foolish act. And if you still worry about the afterdeath, I say HELLYA!!!!

Life - What is it all about?

Sometimes in life, a thought comes to you, making you realize things about life. The funny fact about these thoughts are, that these things you might have heard so many times, but that realization which you have now brings a lot of change in you. 

Today a similar thought pooped (:-P) in my head and i asked me that what is life? It is a common question we all ask to ourselves at some point of life. I think my point came.

Life, Is it about achievements, the money you earn, or is it about being good at your work, or is it about being famous and rich? What is it all about? Is it really the materialistic aspect that makes your life fun? 27 years down the lane of my life there are many things I did, they surely make me happy when I think about them. But the real happiness i feel is when I recall the moments I had with my friends, thinking about the time I spent with someone, even for 15 minutes when there was not even a conversation. The funny incidents, the pranks, the fun, the fights with my sister, the leg pulling of my brother, ragging of a junior who ended up being a friend, a google search that lead me to find a very wonderful person, when I think of them, it is actually that thing which makes me happy. The saturdays at my cousins, the funny arguments I had with my bhabhi, the plans to escape office to go to friends party and many more like them.  These thoughts fills my heart with sheer joy, and then a wish comes out from my heart, to go back and relive them somehow. 

I don't understand why we humans are so materialistic? Why can't we look at the life simply, why is it important that if you love someone, you need her or him to love you back? Why does your work takes over your life, when work is supposed to be a part of your life? Why do we end up forgetting our old buddies while we we keep on adding more facebook friends. Why "I am there" has turned into just a phrase while you are not there when you are most needed? Why relationships have turned into burden which are supposed to be the support system of tough times. Are we actually living life or wasting the best gift we  have?

I feel that life is all about the happy moments you earn in your life. The moments which you will recall and a smile will come on your face, as you will go into your last sleep. I wish to get wealthy with those moments and that is the prayer that comes from my heart.

To end I would quote Rajesh Khanna from Anand "Zindagi badi honi chahiye, lambi nahi." (Life should be big, not long)

Be The Change or Don't Complain

It has been long time now, I posted something about my Mumbai Chronicles. I am sorry because of the lame excuse I will be giving, i.e. was busy with work. But it is actually true, because I have been travelling around for my office work and even though there are moments, when a whole post is cooked in my mind, I am too lazy to serve it. 

However, this one incident I would like to share, and I am not expecting everyone to agree to it but still this is what I feel about the whole incident. As I told, I have been travelling a lot and during my travels I meet many people. On my way to Hyderabad from Chennai - 

"This country is doomed. No one can make it better."

I took my eyes of the book I was reading and looked up. A middle aged person, black hair with some shades of grey, the wrinkle around his eyes showed his age, may be late forties, a pencil type mustache, a coffee brown colored polo neck t-shirt, and black trousers, sat in corner seat of my opposite berth. 

"See, how dirty this place is?"

"That is how it is?" answered a person sitting opposite to him. A young man, 6 feet, the look told he works for an IT firm, specky, headsets placed, carrying 2 phones, one an I Phone and one some Sony device

I went back to reading, ignoring the stupid complaint, but it didn't stop there.

. 

"They will remain like this. Even though they take so much taxes. now they increased the service charges on rail tickets. Where is all this money going? To pay medical bills of some Italian lady... Huh! (referring to the recent claim of a politician that INR 1880/- crores were paid by Indian Govt. for the ruling parties presidents medical visits to foreign countries).

"And we pay for everything." He continued. "See countries like Thailand, Singapore, China, Malaysia, They are getting better day by day and here we are stuck with corruption."

"Ticket to USA is 30K and If i go to Delhi from Chennai, it is also almost 30 K. What a logical pricing." old guy continued while the IT guy nodding in support.

"This country is good for nothing. We just pay and pay. And our politicians enjoy the bribes and taxes we give."

 That was it, when I could not take it more. "Sir are you moving out of India soon?"  I asked the person

"Sorry!!! I didn't get you." the old guy asked, giving me a Who The Hell are you look...

"I asked, are you moving out of India to another country?"  I answered loudly.

 "No!! Why??" 

"You should move out, if you have so much grunt with this country." I answered.

"What do you mean? Who are you to say that? You are telling me to get out of my country?"

"Sir, I didn't tell you to get out. I just said, if you have so many problems with this system, Please feel free to leave. World is too big. You have USA, Thailand, Malaysia and many more. I am just saying what you feel."

"Young man, mind your business. I pay taxes and I do have rights to ask questions."

"Sir asking questions is different. If you want to ask questions, use your right to information and ask where you get an answer. Not in public, disgracing your own country. I don't deny about issues we have, but I bet, all the countries you named have issues. Please don't judge the book by its cover. USA, you named, is running in crisis, the locals are complaining about taxes, their presidential elections have become a mockery. "

"You named Thailand, a government, which have made it a fun destination point, to be precise a place for drugs, booz and sex. Other countries you named are also struggling with drug addiction issues, human trafficking and financial crisis. From distance everything looks good."

"Next time, when you are on International tour, please try to visit the back-lanes to find the ugly truth. No country is perfect, everyone has to make it perfect."

"You are telling that we should sit back and agree to all injustice."  the man argued. 

"Please stand up against injustice, but then set examples. You just complained that the place is dirty, just half an hour back when the train began its journey, you finished a bottle of water and threw it on track. You could have dropped it in the compartment dustbin."

"So you say, I made this place dirty."  the guy got all red and annoyed.

"No Sir, you didn't, we all made it dirty. Please don't get angry. I felt bad, when you said bad about my country. Jaisa bhi hai, ye mera desh hai, (It is my country, whatever the condition it is in) and I will try to make it a better place with my small efforts and hope to spread the message to everyone."

"Leave it Sir, he seems to be quite emotional about India. Its already 11, let us all sleep."  the IT guy intervened and our uncomfortable conversation ended like that. 

The old man was still gave me angry looks, but something other was going in my mind. To at least begin somewhere. So thought to request you all to be part of a change. Lets change ourselves to be a part of a better country. 

Try to be right, do right things and stand against injustice. Charity begins at home, so lets improve ourselves.

Don't spit and throw garbage on roads or open areas.

Please try to follow the rules.

Try to help the people. Don't pay bribes.

Don't promote begging by giving money to beggars. If we could help, try to get them in touch with some organization.

And many more things that you think can improve our country, us and give peace to our souls.

When You Were There...

Those were the golden days when you were there...
When our long chats used to be most of our days share...

Our talks.. our jokes.. our chit chats... our care...
When there were only smiles, not a single drop of tear...
Those were the golden days when you were there...

There were no rights and wrong anywhere...
and no double thought on the things we shared...
It was just you and me, and we were the best pair...
Those were the golden days when you were there...

I wish you are near now, like you used to be there...
right by my side... like the friend who always cared...
the feeling of you gone is too hard to bear...
Those were the golden days when you were there...

Far or near we will be, you will still be in here...
with a word of prayer... and all lovely memoirs...
deep inside in my heart somewhere...
Those were the golden days when you were there...

Will be Waiting...

I never forced you to love me..

I never flirted with someone to make you angry..

I never warned you to not to speak with others..

I never said, don't do the thing you want..

You Are Like A Bird For Me,
Free to fly away anywhere you want to go...
But
the only thing you must know,
Wherever you will go,
When you decide to come back...

You will find me here waiting for YOU ♥♥

You My Angel.... 

*** interesting post which i saw on FB.... 

I have heard that love should be something extra ordinary in this ordinary life. If you ask me that what love is, I can’t explain. But I do believe it is something which makes you just wants to live for someone else. It can be for you family, your friends and some times for some stranger.

So how do you know you are in love? Well I don’t know, at all. Neither I am writing this post to explain what love is? It’s a question that popped up in my head, and a question many people ask. Some people say they know, some are like me who say I don’t. But we all do believe that Love is something that is there in this human life. You might be thinking that why all of a sudden, I am writing on Love. Is it because I am in love? Well let me answer in a way that today I am writing because I wanted to write on this topic. All the way I am always in love with my life, my family, friends and yeah won’t deny that there is some special one. But let us keep it that way for the time.

Well generally Love is commonly used and discussed when it comes to a person who is unknown or have no relation with you but still you want that person to be happy and will do anything for his/her smile. One thing I know, that this feel is something no one can explain but this whole feel makes you very happy and makes you have a big wide smile even when you are in deep shit.

Writing about love, I would give my point of view about love. Unlike the latest trend, I follow the old school of Love, where you meet a person, whom you meet and slowly you realize that yeah he/she is perfect. Although that never means that he/she should love you back the same way. But then I feel happy that at least I found someone who I think is the One. Some years back, I used to think that love happen only ones, and if you lose it, you don’t fall in it again. But sometimes you find someone who sweeps you from your feet and you just skip your heart beat.

For me, the person I love needs not to be perfect because no one is perfect in this world. What matters is that she is happy, even if it is with some one else. Yeah people say it is easy to say, but again, nothing in life is easy. But if you really love a person, and it demands sacrifice or pain, it is worth it. Yeah Life is not charity but again, for me Love suppresses every rule in this world. And if the person accepts my love, then the motto is to be true to every word I have said to her.

Well that was my take on Love… What’s yours…??

Its all about Women... :P

Daily before i sleep i have a habbit of just reviewing my acts which i did that whole day. Although its too late to rectify them (if i cud, it wud take another day... :P) but atleast to self analyse and prevent the acts of stupidity as well mistakes in the future.

Yesterday i was doing the same when something struck me and I was enlightened. I have been told to arrange few girls for a road show we are planning to have in coming days. Now in Doha, where can i go and find girls. I went to my boss, and he suggested that ask this guy Mr. A, whos cousin came to our previous event.

Now i called Mr. A, and enquired about his cousin. He said, he will pass the message and then this girl contacted. Lemme name her Ms. G. Now Ms. G was a great help. She is a smart lady. She added me on Whats app (a msgr application) and we have conversed only on text. I had explained her the requirement and by the end of the day, i got around 4 calls from different girls who were ready to participate in the event.

Now you will think, what is the whole Big thing i realised from this. The fact which i realised when i was thinking about the whole journey of girl hunting was, whenever a girl called me, i IM'd Ms.G and thanked her. and then we used to chit chat for a while.

Now i was thinking, did i thank Mr. A who helped me find Ms. G?

NO!!!

But i thanked Ms. G like 'n' number of time. And i was at my sweetest best.

I realised, in the end that we Men, any type, any kind, when it comes to a girl, you are at your best behaviours and for Guys, you dont even care. :P

Tu Haaiiiiiiii Meriiiiiiiiiii Kiiiran.... ;-)

Title itself reminds every indian about a song which was a chartbuster for a long long time... For others, these are lyrics of a famous hindi song...

Coming back to the topic, well on my way back to my appartment today, this track came up on the radio and while listening to it, my train of thoughts began to whistle... :-p. Yeah, me thinking is quite unnatural but sometimes i do think... hehe...

And my train of thoughts took me back to 1993 september (yeah its train of thoughts, not a time machine, but i went to 1993 because that is when this song came out) it was on lips of every second person. Specially with the vella bandas (busy widout wrk ppl.. :P) who sit near girls colleges for an eye soother moment.

And if any girls name was Kiran, thats it, they were supposedly being called everywhere... :P Infact every girl was kiran during that period.... just to tease a girl, u just sing Tu hai meri kiran... (You are my kiran).

Now that is not i was thinking.... I was thinking is that what made Anand Bakshi ji (with all due respect to him) choose kiran. We know, in India films is like a religion and with this song, any girl name kiran was going to have fun trouble. Eve teasing and all... Why didn't he go for any other name.  So many names and only Kiran... Who was kiran...? did she ever ditch him...? even his wife's name was not kiran, so that probability is also gone...? this question remains a secret....

But with this act actually he brought all kirans to extinction... After this song coming out i think, i haven't heard people keeping Kiran name for their daughters. May be 2-3 people. like kiran rao, (wife of aamir khan) are the few species left with this name. Now, I blame Mr. bakshi for this. He initiated a nuclear reaction because of which Kiran is extinct now. Becoz of his enemity or hatred to the name (which is still a secret) now we can only hear about them in his song or we have to watch whole movie to see K K k k kiran... :P

Well it was a very useless train of thought (who won't be expecting that) but i thought i will share it with you...

Tu hai meri kiran... tu hai merii kiran....

Who am I...??

Sometimes, there are some questions which come up in my mind and keep on kicking up my grey cells.... I am at a point in my life, where I have everything what generally is looked for by normal people, a good job, a good car, a family who is happy because me catering their needs, everything is good but still there is something missing. I am not satisfied from life and I don't know what is that thing which will satisfy you.

In life, you sometimes lie to yourselves and you keep on believing them and live with it, but they come back from the grave and hit you on your face and you don't have any answer to it. You still as yourselves that what is your life worth... what is your destiny...? I am going through the same thoughts... Is this what i wanted..? And if thing i am doing is going as per plan then why i am not happy...

May be this is the human nature to be not satisfied with what they have. Am i getting more human? because i never thought i was. I do have goals but not long term or goals which are logical. The more I think, more i confused I get... Let it be... the answers are somewhere there... and i hope i will find them...

Change happens and Life Moves On...

Today Ma nd pa moved from Chandigarh... will be in kerala day after tommorrow...

Somehow feeling very low today... the fact of them moving was always there in front of me and it was me who have been trying to do so, because when they left their home (kerala), their dream was to earn and settle back in their place. And today we have taken a step towards that front.... But now its like, now i need reason to go to chandigarh.... its not mine anymore.... the way i used to say it earlier.... :(

I have always thought that why do we love a place so much... Is it really the place that we love or other factors.... Have given a thought about it many times.... and today when mom and dad have moved, it feels so awkward that i won't be going to that place the same way i used to go... I can't call it a home anymore....

I think its the people and the memmories which makes the city so special.... My friends, the relations i made there, Strangers becoming the part of life... Its not the blood relations that drives you there but the friends and relatives who are not really relative... They are sister, brother, uncle, aunties but they are no one... it is the love, the bonding you have with the people there...

I was thinking, if i was sent to chandigarh with no one i know living there, then will i ever like it the way i like it now.... The real bond and root has moved, as well as many dear ones have left for greener pastures.... But the feeling of going back to that place is there....

So Strange.... But true.... i still have some very important strings of my life there.... and those strings will always keep me connected to that city.... BUT NOW IT ISN'T MY HOME ANYMORE... AND THATS A FACT... THAT'S A ANOTHER CHANGE IN THE LIFE....

Moving ahead with another dream... another home for my parents... in their place... in their land... I hope things go smoothly....

My Screw Ups....

Me and God have a fun relation. When I used to be small, ma parents used to take me to temple and tell me to fold hands, close your eyes and wish whatevr u want… God listens and then blesses u for your dreams…. I dnt know wen I started to believe that god is a friend of yours and we never need to tell him that we need this… they say that god is everywhere and resides in ur heart so why to wish anything… The only thing I started to say when I used to be temple or any place where I pray, “Hey God!... how r u? (I believed that we go and tell him our problems, who will ask his troubles. Although he nvr shared ne of troubles to me). Please bless everyone and keep everyone happy. (becoz I was tld by someone that if some one prays for u god processes it fast. When I used to say everyone, it included me also so no special prayers for me).

Apart from that there was one more thing I usually add. Top secret which I think God took seriously. I use to say If you wanna trouble someone, try me but keep everyone happy.

Why I am saying that these words were taken seriously becoz lately I realized that whatever I do or work on ends to a screw up. Although somehow I can’t stop laughing wen all this happens. That will be another feature added to my character by him. :-P

But my friends get mad nd frustrated… wat to do they r with me…. But that is another aspect which GOD has always kept in mind. They have given me some very good friends who stand with me even wen I m in a deep shit. Little complaints r always there but in the end they r with me…. :-P

Why am I writing this all becoz recently I started reviewing screw ups of my life… thot of writing it as a record for future generation… General day to day activities are now normal for me… nd if write it will be same for you…. Whatever route I take or suggest has traffic… the road may be closed for some repairs…. Blah blah blah!!!! This happenes to almost everyone…

Some uncommon are like wheneva I have money to send to india (large amount, small amt I nvr see rate for that) the exchange rate will be at the bottom… after cumin to Qatar the lowest exchange rate was 12 .40 INR for 1 Qar… today it is 12.19…. nd still dipping… :P

Neways that all is normal But these ones are funny….

I still remem my Engg. Drwng Exam in 2nd Sem of my Diploma… I completed my paper in One hour nd friend behind me was struggling to draw the lines straight…. We exchanged sheets, I drew his answers also… exchanged them successfully… No one caught us… No troubles… successfully cheated…. Were very proud of our friendship nd fooling the invigilators…

Result came: I flunked in that paper nd my friend passed…. Still we dnt know how that happened…. Nd till date I can’t stop laughing on that…

Some that happened with my friends….

When I was new in Qatar, I used to move around with on Mr. R (dnt wanna name neone)… From the time I started moving around with him, his car started to have accidents… it was like his car is parked nd then also ppl will come and hit him…. Nd the funny part of all this was every time Police blamed the mistake on him…. So that means repairs from own pocket…. We never realized that it was my effect or so but later wen I got my own transport till date he had not even a single accident….

To add more strength to that, one of the safest driver we have seen in qatar Mr. J asked me to accompany him to a mall… we entered parking lot… a hummer was in front of us… suddenly what happened to the driver, she reversed and BOOM… the front of our car gone….. Now that’s wat KISMAT is all about…. From that day ppl think twicebefor giving me lift….

Window Cracking

This was another comic experience…. But a very costly affair… Mr. R brought his brother in law’s Pathfinder…. He was teasing us showing the keys when my friend A snatched the keys nd threw it to me… We both ran in the car sat and started to drive…
Pls note the speed… may be 5 Kmph…nd moved hardly 10 mtrs… I saw Mr. R running behind us (in rear mirror)… I felt pity and applied breaks…

Thud!!... A was not wearing belt… nd he was looking behind… when I applied brake he was disbalanced nd his head hit windshield… but he was still laughing which showed it was paining but fine…. The next scene was shocking… there was a crack in the windshield… Very visible to naked eye… We shunted out 1400 QAR to get it changed (15000 INR)…. But what we r still confused is what was A’s head made of…. J


MY 5 day short Vacation….

My vacations were due in May.. then also I got it approved from management in Feb…. It was ma bro’s marriage… and the wedding dress was purchased by me…. All packed, I was excited to leave…. One day more to go and my boss come and tells me that I have to cancel my vacations… Some important work where I need to be present… had an argument, day long debate nd was allowed to go for 5 days… to attend marriage…

I sat at airport telling myself… this is the limit, my vacation got cancelled, I was failed in driving license test without even asking anything, I have only 5 days but now I will hav a smooth flight nd njoi the party… I purchased some chocolates for my nephews nd nieces.. filled them in my bag nd was zipping it… the zip came in my hand… J
It was funny scene me sitting at airport and transferring my clothes in to newly purchased 200 riyal bag which I cud get outside for 50 bucks….


Well I m not writing more or I will make u ppl fall asleep or not be friends with me NEMORE…. Secondly u mite think “this is nothing… I have a better one…”

Waise wateva it is, i still believe God is with me and takes care of me...

Selflessness - the quality of unselfish concern for the welfare of others

SELFLESSNESS - Whenever I hear this word, train of thoughts start in my mind. I ask myself if there is anything like selflessness. I always say no. People argue when they hear me saying that, they ask me what are soldiers doing when they risk their lives to protect the country and people.

I agree that it is an act of bravery and I respect it but in the end what they did made them happy. There is no such thing which doesnot have any reaction on you. Its like Newtons Law. If you are doing something you get something.

We help our friends, go out to any extent to make them smile, even when it hurts you because that makes your friend happy and seeing them smile we get happy. Indirectly in process of helping others we are just making ourselves happy. Thats why I don't agree on that word called selflessness. But that doesn't mean that I am just insulting all those people who are out there helping everyone.

For all those people, my Salutations and respect are always there.

9/11

Yesterday I watched MY Name is Khan.... Again one bollywood attempt to highlight the trauma of people, especially Muslims post 9/11 attack in U.S.A. It was a nice attempt but guys! its high time we stop this. So many movies still being made on the topic and taking the cover that you are passing the message of humanity to the world.

Its not that I am heartless guy who just don't realise what happened was very painful. But making money out of the story is more painful in my eyes. I mean guys, it happened in 2001 and now its 2010. Even US citizen have moved on and are working towards future but here we are still repeating the same old story. One muslim guy who is nice and showing the path of humanity... Some people who were ill treated because of the religion they believed, turn to the path of terror. Yes, we know it happenned and there were thousands of such cases. But that does not mean you take up every single story and make a movie on it. It is high time when we make movies which are for entertainment as well as have a message which people can carry back with them. Next time when something practically happens in their life they relate to the movie and work accordingly. We seriously need directors who are thoughtful.

I also want to add that all religion be it Hinduism, Islamism, Christianity or any other, everyone teaches us to love and stay together. It is natural that you never distinguish people based on religion.

Lets do a practical test, look around the people you know. Or take your own example, do you distinguish people based on the religion. I never did and i don't think people around me ever did that to me, that too when I am working in a country which an Islamic Nation. Its the situations which leads people to think on that level that he was a muslim and he did it. We always hear India & Pakistan rivalry but in Pakistan they drink water from Sutlej which flows in from India. Have someone ever said i won't drink water from that river as it flows from India. When nature didn't divide us who are we to divide and discriminate.

I hear people saying that Islam teaches people to capture other religions. I am very astonished because I don't think, they have ever read Holy Quran. "Jehad" a word being used by people to cover terrorism never meant to destroy all religion. Jehad means freedom, Freedom from evil thoughts, freedom from bad company, freedom from all ill activities, it never meant that Islam is tied and they need to make Islam free. Same is taught to us in vedas that your soul should be pure and free from ill thoughts. Holy Bible teaches to be happy, and make people happy. I go to church, and I have never heard any priest saying that don't help people who are not Christians. Sikhism is another religion which has a history of fighting for Hindus.

In the end I pray for all the souls that have been lost due to the terror activities around the world. And atleast we all should not change a point of view for a person if something happens around us.

Smoking....

No guys.... I am not going to give a lecture on smoking and not smoking.... Its no use because who wanna smoke will smoke, who doesn't will not....

Whole idea of writing this post is to tell that i tried it.... Since when i am asking people that why do they smoke, that i don't remember and it is still unanswered.... So Yesterday I thought that how will I know how it feels until and unless I smoke. So yesterday, I took a Marlboro White and lighted it. I smoked the first puff, nothing happened, second puff nothing happened, puff after puff but nothing happened. Cigarette finished, I threw the stub into the dustbin. All I felt was some smoke taste which was not so good.

And Now I am more confused because it does not taste good, it damages your lungs and other body organs, you smell shit and then also people smoke. What for?

GOD... enlighten me.... :-P

Reality Check

How funny it is....

We believe unreal things in our lives and never want to believe what is real even when we know it is real and it is the fact....