It’s a Good bye for Now

Hello everyone, it has been long that I have been missing from my blog after my fallout with GOD (missing as if anyone was looking for me… LOL). It should not matter too much for me if someone was looking for my posts or not because I write it for me. I won’t deny the fact that someone really had inspired me to write my blog but then that person also left. Life is like a train journey; people come, stay and then move out. You can’t cry or make fuss about it.

Well today there is nothing specific I want to write, it is just about the things happening and how confused I am in the whole process and what I think I should do. Life is giving me a bag of mixed emotions. It is like life is throwing lemons at me and I think I am going to make lemonade from them.

I am feeling my dream, my passion is still haunting me because the more I am trying to achieve them, more I feel that they going away. It is like a mirage, you feel you can reach them but then they are still away.

My current job is going fine, but then there is no energy or kick that would drive me to office. The feel is not right at all to work in that kind of environment but my commitments stop me from quitting.

And the worst part it previously when I used to be in such a phase where I felt low, when the things didn’t look fine, I used to just pick up my phone, dial number of my close ones and just talk random. Sadly today the busy world has taken over everything. Sometimes they are in meetings, sometimes they are with family or sometimes they just don’t realize because the phone is on silent. So other than the above said 2 points this fact kills me more that world has taken over my space in my people’s (I don’t call everyone my people) lives.

I guess the phase is not right for me. Some people say it is all about time, and God will make things right. I don’t feel so because it seems the so called GOD is trying to put me down, trying to bend me with his wits. Well if that is the case then I guess the “WAR is ON”. If I have stood by people in their tough times, I guess I can stand for me when required. Like my childhood days, the years when I spent my time alone in house, all alone, I had been my friend, my philosopher and my guide. I recall those times, when I used to stand outside our society playground where kids of my society used to play cricket and watch them playing. I was never taken in team because they knew the moment my mother reached back from office, I would have to leave the game halfway and go home.

The feel of being alone is not new to me. But since I got some freedom, I had made up a family of my own, of my people, the people I called friends, rakhi sisters or so called brothers from another mother. I have not been alone in recent past so it feels odd a bit now to find no one around. But then no one promised me to be there, and even if they did, they have their own lives.

There are some decisions I have to take to move ahead, to fight with this world, which tries to change you the way they want. I have my dreams to achieve, I have to show this world that I have lived alone and I can live alone again. I still won’t change, you all can look for me, this guy will still be there for you. Not like I will be there but unavailable when needed. I will be there, the way you have always found me.

This will be my last post till I have finished my first script. The thing I want to do for me, and till that time nothing else. There are some more steps I need to take, some decisions which may end some stories or which may make them believe that I left.  My stories never had an ending, I just leave them halfway. I don’t like endings but then I will accept the fact, that end is necessary. And there will be endings in every story of my life someday.

Till the time I am back, its good bye from me. Thanks for being there.

Friends r Forever

Have you ever felt that our life is a movie which is being captured on a show reel inside our brain cam? No?? If not then why sometimes your whole life plays in front of you as a movie reminding you about the moments and faces that have touched your life? I don’t have answer for that why but this show reel lead me to write this post on some faces I saw whom I call FRIENDS.

Friendship is one amazing thing that happens to us in our lives and we cherish those stories till the time we live. But all these stories are not the same like each other. Some friends just go away not to come back, some go, come back, then again go and again come back while some stay forever. My post is dedicated to all those friends, who were there, are there and who may or may not be there.

I would begin with thanking those Friends who came to my life, gave me some moments to cherish and are now in some part of this world busy with their lives. Thank you for the fun time, the time which will be in my mind for my whole life, the time which are in my photo albums which I look at while a tear drops out from my eye. You guys have taught me a very important lesson of life by making me realize that life has its own course and we have to move on. I wish you all the success and pray for your good health and prosperity. And I still hope you guys come to the second category of friends who come and go because you are missed a lot.

For my Friends, who are there as per the facility, LOL. What I mean is those who come, go and come. It is not a complaining tone and I really love you guys because you keep on coming back. This shows me that you have love for me which brings you back every time you miss me. You make me realize that things change, work over powers emotions but in the end we all are humane and we all need friends and people for us to live with. You guys help me to believe to have faith in everything in life. What you think has gone can always come back and this is what I learn from you. I cherish the moment when I get a call from you when I totally don’t expect it. The surprise factor is always there that tickles me. Like a leap year, whenever I meet you I find a day added in you. And I will keep on waiting for you because I believe you will come again. And my prayers are always there for you.

And now for those buddies who have been there for a long time. What should I say to you guys?? You are my lifeline and I am lucky to have you with me. I mean god gave you so much of patience and grit to bear a pain like me and that too for such a long time. Life, time, family, jobs nothing weakens our bond. I know me and I am one crazy guy to be handled and you people do it without complaining. You make me believe in God because if there was no power like him, I won’t have people like you in my life. I can’t imagine a life without you guys and I don’t have any words to express what I feel about you. I cherish the every moment with you and always look forward for the time we all get together. Even in different locations across the globe I feel that you people are always next to me. And I am thankful to God for having such people in my life. I consider myself lucky because people generally have 1 or 2 friends like this but I have more.

And In the end I want to mention to those friends whom I have been neglecting. Sorry yaar, I love you guys

and I have no reason to treat you like this. I really love you people and you are always in my mind, it’s just that I am too dumb and lazy to be precise to pick up the phone and give a call to you. Now also I am writing the post instead of giving you a call. I promise I am going to that and you will be hearing from me very soon. You people teach me that whatever way people treat you, you should be nice to them because you are nicer and better than them.

Dear readers who all have reached till this line, has touched my life in some way and I thank you for visiting this blog. This post is dedicated to all my friends because Friendship is something very precious and I really want to tell them they are special and they make me special. And I want to tell them that even if we haven’t been in touch, even if we haven’t spoken for long, you still are my friend and will always be my friend.